i owe so many people email and so many people blog comments. i'm thinking of you all and i haven't forgotten you; i'm just very overwhelmed at the mo. ironically, now i'm feeling better in myself, i'm feeling even more overwhelmed by the weight of everything that needs to be done.
i went to the GP today and she's tweaked my antidepre.ssant dosage and timings. let's hope it helps eh?
following on from this post, i have two relax.ation cds that i got from work about 18 months ago. one's ten minutes or so, the other is 40 minutes long. i've done the short one most days in the last week or so. i did the long one today. usually when i do either of them, i stay conscious - i don't 'drift off' or anything. today, i did - until one of my neighbours started clattering round outside, anyway. not long into it. still, i think that's progress.
i plan to call the gym about joining tomorrow and hope to go for a swim tomorrow night.
and i've been eating a more realistic amount of food the last few days. my weight is going down, just a little, but it's the right direction.
and i'm going to bed as soon as i finish this, and might actually get 8 hours sleep during the week for once.
i'm not there yet. i have a long long way to go.
but i'm moving in the right direction.
cd12 today. our chances of conce.iving this cycle are minute. a) we have a fertili.ty testing appointment and can't DTD sunday-tuesday next week. b) i'm away without D the weekend after that. and the chances are that i'll be fe.rtile in one or the other of those times.