my head's all in a spin.
i was terrified all morning.
the short version is that they didn't find any problems. but that doesn't explain anything. so i don't exactly feel any better.
she had the report that the hospital did on the baby.
i don't know why i've never been able to get it.
it was 55mm long.
(so small. so small.)
it had two arms. and two legs.
each of them had five digits.
there was no mention of a tumour on the neck.
and she said she thought that if there had been one that the report would have mentioned it.
so the only thing i thought i knew i was wrong about.
and the only answer i thought i had, that the baby had a chromosome abnormality, was wrong.
and it made me long for my baby - my tiny, perfectly-formed baby - all the more.