i've been seeing a lot of rainbows recently.
this one i saw after leaving work yesterday evening.
and i'd love to believe that it meant something. that all these rainbows mean that my own living baby is on its way.
but the only omens i believe are the bad ones.
the ones that tell me it'll never happen.
i have no faith in good omens. not at all.
like car says, they're just an illusion.
i've been back and forth. hen parties, weddings. to the gym, to work, with family, to the supermarket, back home.
it doesn't leave me much time for the internet.
i have well over a hundred posts unread in google reader. well, down to just under 100 now, but it was 162 or something earlier tonight.
i try and support people. try and let them know that i'm reading. that i care. i find it very hard to mark read and move on without commenting.
but right now, i have to. i can't comment on everything. i'm going to make myself ill.
i'm having to delete email i'd rather read (not personal ones but things i'm interested in). and i'm going to have to throw things away. my house is a tip. i can't manage to unpack from one trip before i go on another. thankfully there is only one more night away coming up soon and then i'm home for the next six weeks or so.
i feel really bad about all this. but i have to look after myself. don't i?