today i'm mostly scared of ectopic pregnancy and blighted ovum.
today i'm quiet. not excited, not terrified. occupying that grey area in the middle.
today i'm wondering about cancelling my tuesday appointment at the dental hospital for two small fillings. wondering whether the stress would be a bad thing.
today i'm wondering whether tomorrow the clearblue test will say '2-3' instead of '1-2'. and wondering how i'll cope if it doesn't. and wondering whether i should wait another couple of days. just to be sure.
today i'm hoping the midwife calls me tomorrow.
today i don't have any symptoms, and i'm trying to tell myself that that doesn't mean anything.
today i'm trying to remember that i'm lucky to have all these things to worry about.
today i'm thinking the next 36 weeks are going to last a very, very long time.