last time around the baby died four days after a scan.
this is all happening three days after a scan.
last time i found out the day after i'd been out for lunch with a group from work.
today i went out for lunch with a group from work.
last time it was november.
now it's november.
this doesn't feel good.
i'm going to bed.
i'm terrified i'm going to wake up bleeding in the middle of the night.