Sunday, 19 June 2011

the other night, D was talking to my belly, telling the baby to hurry up and come out. and he said 'come out, we miss you!'.

and that is the most illogical and the most perfect thing he could have said.

we've never met him yet, but we miss him, and we can't wait for him to be finally on the outside.

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today is my due date. i've had some twinges but nothing more. i'm getting more and more anxious, more and more afraid that something is going to go wrong.

i need him to be ok.

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i've always been of the opinion that i really don't want a caesarean unless it's really, really necessary. but the last day or two... part of my brain wants to call the hospital and say just get him out, already. get him out safe and well. i'm not sure how long i can wait for him to turn up on his own.

come on, baby boy. time to make your move. before your mummy starts cracking up again.

14 comments:

Illanare said...

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Hope's Mama said...

You've done better than me. I only got to 38 weeks with Angus before I lost the plot. I really, really didn't want a c/s but mostly, I really didn't want another baby to die. I no longer trusted in the process and I just needed him out, while I knew he was alive and well.
See how you go - either way, it doesn't matter. Just as long as you're both ok.
xo

B said...

Ironically I'm more confident he's doing OK now than I was for months - his movements are far more regular and strong and reassuring now, at the time when babies are supposed to run out of room and slow down some, than they were at ANY point up til maybe three-four weeks ago. And I think it helps that I know that going off my ovulation date gives me a due date another 6 days hence :/

I've always got the option of calling. I'm just hoping he turns up before it comes to that, I guess.

Thanks for understanding hon xx

R. said...

Good luck, thinking of you!

Rebecca said...

Hang in there--you are SO close now! I hope he decides to make his arrival soon! And coming from a girl who has had 3 c-sections, and whose mom is a midwife...any way he comes out will be great, as long as he is healthy.

Catherine W said...

Could you ask them to induce you? Which, admittedly, could well end up in a C section. Sigh. But not necessarily. I had a couple of sweeps, prostin and my waters broken and that did the trick.

There were some very minor problems with R towards the end of my pregnancy but, my consultant told me, the main reason that I was induced was that he looked ready and they didn't want to take any risks with him.

If I hadn't had my induction date in my mind I would have been losing the plot too. Hang on in there, thinking of you xo

Frustrated Fairy said...

Hang on in there, so close now, come on baby!!

Big Love, Big Acceptance - or so I say said...

Like everyone else says - hang in there! And do what you need to do to take care of yourself and baby.

I certainly understand the possibility of increasing anxiety the longer you have to wait. My baby came 10 days "late", so I know the waiting is soooo hard! We were planning an induction by 42 weeks if needed. And to help things along I had some acupuncture sessions and my membranes swept - who knows if those helped kick start my "late" labor or not, but at least I felt like I was doing something to get her here (w/o a full on induction).

thinking of you!!!

biojen said...

Come on, little guy. Everyone is anxious to meet you!

stink-bomb said...

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Anonymous said...

Any news B??? Claudia

brianna said...

You must be so anxious to see him! I hope that all is going well and that maybe he is already here...

Mary Jane said...

thinking of you B. hope he is here or on his way soon. xoxo.

Rebecca said...

I've been checking daily for news and hope he comes soon (or here already)!!